“so why do you think your life is suddenly so important”This is the comment that I have received recently.
“so why do you think your life is suddenly so important” I’m not one to receive loads of hate or bad comments on social media, don’t get me wrong I get a few things like “I should read the bible” or “you’re a sin in the lord’s eyes” stuff like that but never anything personal or about appearance. So, when I got this comment, I was a little taken back, whether it was meant in a horrible way or a joking way I will never know but the person who said it doesn’t know me, don’t know what I have been through in my life, they are not in my social circle or ever spoken to before which was a shock to me that they had the nerve to say that. Firstly – I was brought up to believe that everyone’s life matters, everyone’s life is important, so to ask someone why they think theirs is I think is quite offensive. I have struggled with myself and my confidence for most of my life and now I finally feel like I’m in an alright place and trying to do something about it. so I decided to put it out there to try and help others or just to let people know they are not the only ones to feel like that, and I end up being told that. How did they not know this wouldn’t send be back to my old ways? I haven’t taken this to heart in all honesty but if I was a different person who couldn’t handle that comment it could have caused some serious damage to that person, so my question to them is who the hell do they think they are? And why do they think it’s acceptable to even come out with that. I have been so insecure about myself for so long that I have thought about that sort of comment a lot of my life. Do I matter? Why do I think I’m good enough? Why am I here? So, I think this really hit home and brought a lot back about what I went through. People don’t always understand either as in this world it’s drilled into us that you are born as a boy or a girl, and when you grow up you are considered straight, boys must be with girls and girls must be with boys. With all this in you head growing up it makes you question everything when you suddenly think “god that guy is good looking” I remember when I thought that and I use to crying, at times hitting and telling myself you are not allowed to think like that. I used to think I was a freak, I was strange, I was weird and that there was something seriously wrong with me. I was bullied for being different and my childhood was quite bad with all this going on. It shouldn’t matter what sexuality you are, what you identify as or what your life choices are. No one has the right to bring another person down because of it. the same as looks, no one should be allowed to bring another person down because of the way they look. So yes, I do songs about my feelings because I want to, yes, I write a diary entry about things in my life because I want to, and yes, I’m very proud of myself for it and I’m happy with my life and that is something you will not take away from me. So to this one person who decided to wake up and comment on my life and thinking I’m not that important, I feel sorry for you that you have to fill you day with negativity and hateful words to try and make yourself feel better. I said I didn’t take it to heart but maybe from this rant I might have, but like I said if I wasn’t as strong as I am now this would have seriously damaged me and made me rethink my life and no one should be allowed to ever do that to another human being. Right I’m done now Scott x
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