One Of Those Girls
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One Of Those Girls - Out 6th May
Everybody has that one person they know, knew or have in there life that think they are better then everyone else. They could be a guy or a girl but in my case it was a girl hence the song being called “One Of Those Girls” If you have ever seen mean girls then this is the sort of person I am talking about, they make up rumours to try and be popular and to try and better themselves. They will say anything and not even consider the hurt it would cause and say the most vile of things that make you think what the hell!! It always baffles me these sort of people, they don’t realise that people know exactly what they are like and who they are. People talk and stories don’t add up and things just end up not making sense. Not going to lie I have had a few of these sort of people in my life and the damage that they leave behind when you finally cut them out your life is extremely unpleasant but at the same time it’s like a breath of fresh air to not have to deal with the constant drama and lies. Hope you enjoy, it’s one of my favourites Scott x |
Voices in my head
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Voices In My Head - Out 6th May
This song is about all the voices in your head constantly going over everything, every situation that’s good and bad and just plays over and over. For me, this song is about dealing with all of the questions, all of the guilt, the last moments I spent with my mum, the things I never got to do, and it is eating me up inside. But for me, my problem has always been not open about my emotions. I am more then happy to bottle everything up until I explode into a breakdown. Sharing my feelings wasn’t anything that I would do or if I’m honest could do. I could never tell anyone because I didn’t want to burden them with my problems which is why this album to me is such a massive deal sharing my feelings, I have had to deal with most my life. Also, when people say the feelings will end and it will go away, lies they never go away you just learn to live with them and tame them as best you can. Scott x |
It’s ok to dance on your own
It’s ok to dance on your own (remix) |
It’s ok to dance on your own - Out 6th May
Firstly, this song has two versions for a reason, there are two versions because it means two different things basically a Before and After. Growing up a little gay boy was difficult with the whole, being different, not fitting in, being a freak, and being alone. The first version Its Ok To Dance On Your Own (slow version) is the before, living with all of them questions of why am I different, why do I not fitting in, am I a freak, why am I so alone. This song to me is basically telling anyone in this situation that its ok to feel like you’re alone, its ok to think these things because you will one day understand, and you will be accepted and loved for who you are by the right people at the right time, but you must be patient but do not bottle yourself up with everything. People who honestly love you will except you for who you are Never let anyone tell you that you cannot be who you want to be, that you are different and strange or a freak because you are not and THERE IS NOT A NORMAL BECAUSE EVERYONE DIFFERENT. So when I say “Its Ok To Dance On Your Own” I mean its ok to feel alone and feel like you’re the only one because as time goes by you will grow into the person you are meant to be NOW
“Its Ok To Dance On Your Own” (Remix) or as I like to call it, After. This version is basically after you have accepted who you are, found your calling, and found the real lovers of your life who guide you though and wouldn’t change a thing about you. Its about going out and letting your hair down and enjoying yourself and if you want to Dance On Your Own why the hell not! Its your life and you can live it exactly how you want to and don’t let anyone tell you any different. Its about how other people see LGBTQA+ people, there comments and they action’s. Its your life at the end of the day not theirs they have their own. Also, it’s about helping the people in the “before” situation and guiding them down the right path and letting them know its all ok. Hope this makes sense Scott x |
Hazel Eyes
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Hazel Eyes - Out 6th May
“Hazel Eyes” This song is about someone who takes the wrong path and choices in life and end up living in situations that were not planned or expected. It’s also about being used and losing everything because of false trust and people taking advantage of what you have and pulling your life apart. I love a story in a song, I think this comes with my love of country music. This song when I wrote it was just about a story to the (original) backing track and though it fit very well. But as I recorded it and listened to it there was a lot more meaning in It then I thought so obviously I had a lot on my mind. Firstly, I think I may have watched pretty women close to writing this or it was on a program about someone selling themselves for money, so that’s where that comes from. The meaning behind a lot of it is about taking the wrong path and choosing the wrong decisions leading you in a completely different direction to where you are wanting to go. Yes, I have experienced similar experiences in this song which is why it fit so well. When it comes to the “sold herself for cash” this isn’t what you think, I put this in there because the experience that I went through is about someone taking all there money away and then leaving them with nothing. But with out going into extreme detail and revealing what or who it’s about I can’t really explain anymore. It’s a story that has a few of my own life experiences in it. Scott x |
Red wine
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Red Wine - Out 6th May
Right, this is by far my favourite song on the whole album. I love the lyrics the sound the way I have done it the sound effects and also the meaning behind this. This song is all about my mum who passed away in 2013, she suffered with MS and the final month of her life was a real struggle to get any information about what was going on and it was very tough to go through. When she passed away I felt like I had lost one of the biggest parts of my world, I really struggled to get through a day. I felt lost, alone and like my closest person to me had gone. I felt guilt and the pain just kept coming back every day for years. The constant what ifs the questions I will never get the answer to, a life just gone from this world, never have a conversation with again it was so difficult . I ended up turning to drink at times and there was a stage it was “Red Wine” and every time I felt this way I would turn to it. It got to a stage that I was in a very dark place within myself (not with drink just my mental health) that I had to get help and this was a huge relief for me, I was able to understand better and I was able to channel the way I felt better instead of slopping into a real unpleasant state. Don’t get me wrong I still have my moment now and again but they are not as bad and don’t last as long but I miss my mum every single day. I still sometimes think I’ll just give her a call and that’s 9 years on. You never forget, you will never get over it, you learn to live with it and that’s exactly what I have realised. Love you mum, miss you so much and out hilarious chats we use to have. Hope you are proud Scott x |
Make it right
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Make it right - Out 6th May
This song is about the struggles of understanding situations you find yourself in and not knowing how to make things better or make them right. It’s about trying to get yourself in a situation where you are confident and comfortable within yourself and with people close to you after a childhood of being bullied and feeling pain and hurt every single day. it’s the struggles of having unanswered questions that you know you will never be answered. it’s just about trying to figure out how to make things right again. scott x |
For You
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For You - Out 6th May This is a very tough song for me to sing, write and create. It’s very personal to me and holds a lot of emotions and feeling. The feeling of being unwanted, the feeling of being the outsider, the one who they wouldn’t notice if all of a sudden I just disappeared. The reason it is called “For You” is because the lyrics are “why do I feel like this” meaning after all this time I still have to deal with this pain and the way I feel, it’s all because of you, you made me feel like this so it’s for you. Enough said Scott x |
Smiling back at me
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Smiling Back At Me - Released 6th April 2022 This song is basically about acceptance, about finding the right path I needed to go along to be who I am today. I found it very hard to trust anyone when I was younger, and this is mainly due to me not knowing who I was with all the being gay, people hatting me, bullying and all the bad stuff I went through. I was always very cautious about what I say because I knew if I said anything wrong or the wrong way then it would start a fight and people would hurt me. Even to this day I want to be careful as I still don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. But you get to a stage in your life where you just feel now is the time to stand up to myself and to open up and stop caring about these things and worrying to the point it affects how I am. So even though my life was turned upside down by bully’s, mum’s death, and other situations as well I still want to see my mums face smiling back at me and proud of who I am today. Also, its about others accepting who you are, being proud of what I’ve become and achieved even though you never get told or shown but a lot can be carried in a smile. Scott x |
Why does it keep coming back
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Why does it keep coming back - Released 9th March 2022
This song is about feeling like you have a something living inside you bringing out all the emotions and making you relive memories that you want to forget. Its about taking the extremely painful parts and playing them over and over inside you to try and bring you down no matter how strong you feel it always seems to grab hold of you and take you back to the rough place you don’t want to revisit. This is about all the emotions and all the feelings that are felt being retriggered again. It can be triggered by a sound, scent, memory, or a person and you constantly think why this is happening. The feeling that’s felt in these times are of someone or something taking over me and controlling my emotions and not being able to snap out of it. Its like no matter how much I try and how strong I feel it somehow still overcomes me and leaves me feeling the same again. Its literally like there is something deep inside taking control of my body and that’s exactly what this song is about, and it leaves me wondering “Why does it keep coming back” Scott x |
Glad
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Glad - Released 4th February 2022
This song was a very tough song to record but also write. To totally understand it I have to take you back to a time when I was in a very dark place, it was just after my mum passed away and I was so trapped in my head it was dark. I went through a stage of not liking myself and not understand and constantly questioning “why has this happened to me” I felt so lost that dangerous and troubling thoughts kept going through my head and the concept of death didn’t faze me. This song is about the fact that I got the help needed and also with all the people around me showing me love and feeling safe that I am GLAD that I was able to get through it or at least not let it take over my body completely. It’s about being able to stand on my own again and not having to rely on others constantly holding me up and about finding my feet after a troubling time. Hope that you can feel this from the song and that you enjoy it Scott x |
My worst enemy
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My Worst Enemy - Released 7th January 2022 I wrote this song about the daily struggles within myself, there have been so many times I’ve had to question why and I’m always hardest on me because of it. It stems back to school when I was bullied for being “different” however now I see that the difference in my is more of a pride then anything else. It also comes from the time I lost my mum, the feeling, emotions and the sudden guilt that come over me sent me down a path I struggled to cope with. I have done this song to help people understand and also for people to know that they are not the only ones who feel like this. Hope you enjoy it. Scott x |